"Its been a long time I shouldn't have left you"

Really just wanted to include an updated pic of the boobs. Its been 7.5 months since my surgery. Ya know I always thought I would forever feel the implant in there but I dont anymore. I mean I know its there but it doesnt bother me. Guys have commented on how soft they are and its been less than a year. Im still happy. Im all done with my post op visits now. People still ask me where they went in at. Finally finally finally... they are much more even than the previous pictures. As for working out. Ive been doing alot of weight lifting and you get used to that gross feeling you have when you first start. That part is always there but as your muscle gets used to the implant and they drop more the feeling is not even bothersome anymore. So, really that gross implant feeling moving when you lift weights or heavy things doesnt go away but loosens up. I hope that makes sense.

New stuff

So, finally yesterday working at the new club I can do pole tricks. I can pull myself up with out any pain after or during at all.

I went to my post op on Tuesday. My doctor was stuck in surgery so I didnt get a chance to see him. Instead, I saw one of the other doctors on duty. She said I was doing great and the amount of softness was perfectly normal. They are super soft now btw...well not like real boobs yet (long time away for that) but much softer than about a month ago. I still have alot of droppage to do and I can say now Im happy with what I got. Considering how I looked before having deflated pancakes I think I look great. That makes me happy. This is what happens when you gain and lose wieght people. Ive gained wieght and lost it several times in my life. No more than gaining or loosing more than 35lbs though. Its also great that while going through puberty I did get some stretch marks that didn't show up worse after the BA. I got lucky there.
My right breast doesnt bother me much anymore. I realize I was not fully symetrical before and the right one was more south before so of course it was going to be more south than the left one. It cool though. I look great in shirts, corsets, dresses, and the new bikini I bought. ;)

Another before picture

Just to desribe myself I have 38inch hips and was a 34B before. Small boobs and big hips made me look lopsided in photos and naked as well. Insecurities from feeling very pear shaped made me want to get my BA. Im shooting on the 6th for the 1st time since my BA. Im nervous and excited and working out like crazy. lol
I also just found out you can go from under the muscle to over the muscle. Im really going to think about getting a 2nd BA. I think if I sit on it for awhile I can really see if I want or need it in my eyes. Dont want to make any quick decisions without alot of good hard thought.

First pole tricks

So, I started a new place today and tried my first pole tricks. What a weird ass feeling. Since, I went completely under the muscle every time I went to lift my self up even to do a simple swing my boob moved inside. My boob felt like a giant muscle/peck moving inside me. It was a gross feeling. I felt unsure about pole tricks so I stuck to prancing and rolling around instead. I'm not even sure if I'm supposed to do them yet so I better not rather than risk something bad happening to my implants. Kinda sad because I love inverting and doing all kinds of pole tricks. Just another sacrifice of things I'm not able to do for a certain amount of time.

Before pics

Yes, Id rather not remember myself pre-op. But, for the sake of comparison and request here they are. You can also see my complete lack of cleavage to hold up even a padded swimsuit. :/ I was a small 34B before.

*****I did this blog for me and others to see what it is like going through such an invasive procedure. If anyone makes rude comments they will be removed or I will be forced to view them before you post. There is no room for negativitey on MY blog. Have a good day.

About 2 months and 2-3 weeks post op

So, its been some 2 month ish. They have shrunken considerably. Much squishier too. They jiggle alot everywhere I go. Its nice to know with every jiggle they are still there. Although, after massaging alot I am still somewhat loppy. I'm not upset about it because I was somewhat asymetrical before surgery that didn't need a major surgery to correct.

I have decided after about a year I will go back under the knife for a second surgery. Why, you think? I was about a small D 2 months post op and now I'm a middle C. I want a middle to large D next time I go in. I was expecting to be a small D after all of this. I wouldn't say that I am unsatisfied but it was the biggest I could go without major complications. I'm going to have to make an appointment with my PS for my 3 month post op in early July. After the appointment I will update again so you can read what he says.

1 Month and 3 weeks ish

Ok, I new update finally. I took that pic Friday before working out. Everything is going pretty good. Massaging them is so constant is sorta annoying - but for beauty.... I'll do anything. Like they get stiff in the morning, when working out (I have to go in the bathroom to massage during), before sleep, after a meal....really constantly. They said 4-5 times a day anyways.

Its been fun and annoying to stuff them in my old clothes. Some of them look ok but others just look like Im wearing kids clothes. So, Ive been gradually getting new tops.

The pinching pain is less and less the more I massage. It helps best to warm the muscle by giving it a lite massage before really massaging it. They are much softer as every week goes by. They even move from side to side a bit now. They move when I workout too. The scars arent soo bad either. Ive been putting vitamin E oil on them twice a day.
Theres not much to say but I cant wait to see them at 3 months post op.

*1 Month*

Ok its been pretty much one month since I had my surgery. I took my tapes off on Friday and I was soo scared the scars would be long and huge - but they didnt look bad at all. I just went back to work yesterday and it wasnt as bad as I thought. I thought everything was going to hurt but it really didnt hurt at all. Everything just felt a tad bit tight. I got to wear some of my old work clothes and they fit sooo much better on top now.

Its wierd though that when I talk to people I still feel like I dont have a chest. I find myself asking my co-workers "do they look big?". Not intending to sound vein but not really feeling they are my real boobs yet. I just cant get over that in the mirror is the same girl staring back at her. I always think "is that me?" but in a good way.

As for pain theres just some tightness and those tiny nerve endings trying to regrow. They itch sometimes too. Its kinda funny but I cant grab my nipples 1) b/c they are so small and 2) b/c my boobs still need to settle some more. They will be "shiny and new" lol for another 2 months.